This episode is about trying to start over… and slowly losing yourself without even realizing it.

After everything that happened, I just wanted a fresh start. A new school. New people. A place where I could finally belong.

At first, it felt like it was working. I was doing well, my teachers liked me, and for once, I felt comfortable.

But over time, things started to change.

The system wasn’t structured. The motivation wasn’t there. And little by little, I started slipping… from 2nd position to 6th… and then to 9th.

This is the story of how environment can shape you, how you can lose discipline without noticing, and what it feels like to drift away from who you used to be.

If you’ve ever felt stuck, lost, or like you’re not living up to your potential… this one is for you.

Episode 7: Behind the Big Black Gate

After my father died, we moved into a big house as caretakers. From the outside, people thought I came from a rich family, the tall black gates, the large compound, the good school uniform.

But behind those gates, my reality was very different.

In this episode, I share the story of childhood bullying, silent fear, and what it felt like to carry pain that nobody else could see.

Episode 6: The Only Time I Belonged

In this episode, I take you back to primary school, to a small classroom downstairs where four children shared biscuits, coloured drinks in bottle cups, and laughter around one table.

It was the first time I ever felt included.
The first time I felt seen.

From subtle bullying and broken projects to a friendship that felt like home, this is a story about belonging, loss, and the kind of childhood moments that quietly shape us.

Because sometimes, the greatest gift of a season isn’t that it lasted, it’s that it showed you what was possible.

In this episode, I share memories from primary school, from walking to school in wet clothes at seven years old, to sitting alone during break time with five biscuits and watered-down juice.

I truly believed that if I stayed quiet, behaved well, and tried hard enough, I would be safe.

But no matter what I did, something always found me.

This is a story about silence, shame, and the quiet ways a child learns to shrink just to survive.

In this episode of Childhood Confessions, I talk about becoming the quiet child, not because I was born that way, but because silence felt safer. From growing up on scholarship in a wealthy school to shrinking to survive, this is a gentle reflection on childhood, shame, and learning to take up space again.

In this episode, I talk about the difference between love and fear in childhood, how discipline shaped me, and what it means to relearn safe, gentle love as an adult, especially on Valentine’s Day.

In this episode of Childhood Confessions, I talk about the home that shaped me, growing up without a father, being raised by a grieving, overwhelmed mother, and learning to grow up too fast.

This is a quiet conversation about survival, pressure, and the unspoken rules many African homes had.

No blame. Just context, compassion, and honesty.

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Growing Up African — My First Confession

In this first episode of Childhood Confessions, I share my earliest memory growing up African, a moment from play class that stayed with me longer than I realised. We reflect on childhood discipline, silence, and how early experiences shape us long after we grow up.

If parts of your childhood still live with you, this space is for you.

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