In this episode, I talk about one of the most personal and uncomfortable parts of my climbing journey - what happened after I achieved one of my biggest goals.

For years, I built a huge part of my identity around climbing Hubble. It was a dream that gave me direction, purpose, and structure. But when I finally did it, what I felt wasn’t fulfilment.

It was relief.

What followed was burnout, pressure, confusion, and a loss of direction that I kept quiet about for a long time.

In this episode, I explore the relationship between identity and performance, why ambition can become unhealthy when your self-worth depends on outcomes, and how fear of failure and the need for external validation can quietly shape the way we climb.

I also talk about:

• why motivation naturally fluctuates
• how structure reduces cognitive noise and helps create a clearer head
• how performance anxiety often comes from living too far in the future
• why success doesn’t always give you what you thought it would
• and how changing my relationship with climbing helped me find a healthier path forward

This is the first time I’ve spoken openly about this part of my journey.

If any of this resonates with you, and you feel like your identity has become tangled up in your climbing, this is something I often help clients work through as part of my remote coaching.

If you’d like help finding a clearer path forward, feel free to reach out.