You guys, I just realized something, and I know this might sound ridiculous, but I mean this with the utmost sincerity.

I just realized that I am a child.

I just realized that I am a baby infant child. Like, that’s truly where I’m at. It’s truly where I’m at.

I am such an infant, infant, infant... in terms of my human experience. Okay?

Like, I have just been chatting with people that are 50 years old, essentially. Like my parents, my parents’ friends, right? And they have just been through so many things, and like, I’m just so fascinated with speaking with older people in general.

I’m very drawn to the older folk, okay? And I’m talking, like, old people, right? 70, 80. You know what I’m saying?

Because they just have this wealth of... of wisdom. It’s not even wisdom. It’s just like stories. They’re just talking about their life. Like, their experiences, what they’ve been through, who they are, and where they’re going, and like all of these things are just so, so fascinating to me.

Anyways. I feel like I’m going off on sidetracks here, but... I don’t know, I guess I just, I was speaking with my parents and their friends, and it just, I don’t know, I just walked upstairs, and it just hit me like a ton of bricks where I’m like, oh my God.

I am such a beginner at life.

Like, I have so much that I’m going to get to experience, and I have so many things that I’m going to go through. And I guess sometimes I feel like everything’s happening so quick and like, we’re gonna need to figure everything out now, and like, time, ah, what do I do? Decisions. I don’t know. And...

Wow, I don’t know. It just... I don’t know.

Yeah, it’s just making me realize, like, wow. Of course I feel confused, because I’m a baby. I’m a kid.

Of course, like, these things that I thought would happen by now that are not happening right now, which I am accepting, baby. But, like, I guess, yeah, like the things that I’ve thought about, the things that I’ve wanted, the things that I’m going for or whatever, whatever, whatever, they... I guess I could just get so impatient with my life.

Because I’m thinking about this right now because I’m saying it. Oh my God, it’s so ridiculous. Like, I know that that’s ridiculous.

You know, like, I think it’s because I’m impatient. Like, I get so impatient with life because I’m like, I want to have all of these things by now, because I feel like a grandma... like, I’m not a grandma, but like, I don’t know... actually, that’s completely untrue. I do not feel like a grandma at all.

I feel this pressure to have certain things done, completed, or like, en route to. I don’t know why. I think it’s just like, conditioning, societal pressure, your upbringing, you know, the structures that are in place, mental health, you know, that’s totally a playoff player here.

But, wow.

What a great realization. A revelization, a remembrance, if you will, baby, that like, I am a kid. And I have so, so much... life is going to happen to me and like, just relax, chill out, sister Sue.

Like, life is gonna give you everything. Everything, just relax. Stop trying to rush your life so much.

Like, stop sprinting towards... like, why are you, are you running? Jenna, why are you running, girl?

Just, kid, relax. Take it easy. Take it easy.

Wow.

Anyways, um, I’m like... this is totally all I have to say right now, and I don’t even, yeah, well. Maybe... No, I’m like, I really, like, I was going to...

I was going to try and put a little spin on the end of this of like, now, if this is you, and, you know, follow your dreams or something, and I’m like, nope, don’t even... it’s not what I want to do.

I just want to say goodbye.

So? Goodbye.

I want to tell you guys about my summer plans, my big summer of 2026. What is Jenna gonna be up to?

My whole MO is making mistakes. That’s what I’m going to do this summer. I’m gonna make mistakes. I am going to. I’m gonna do the wrong thing. All the time, and I’m gonna keep doing it. I’m gonna say yes to the wrong invitation. I’m gonna say no when I should have said yes. I’m probably going to kiss somebody. There, I said it. I’m probably gonna kiss someone that I shouldn’t. For sure. I’m going to go to the party. I’m gonna stay in. I am going to listen to my intuition, and I’m going to go for the glory, and I’m going to be wrong. And I’m going to be right.

But what I do know for sure is that I’m going to be making mistakes, and that’s what I’m going to be doing this summer, starting right now. Starting right now, that is my MO. Also, I don’t even know what MO means. M-O, that is my mission. Onward. That’s what MO means to me right now. My mission onward is to make mistakes.

I have been feeling like, if I don’t make the perfect choice and be this perfect person in this present moment, my whole future is going to collapse and fall apart. And I know this cannot be true. But I have been operating at like such a level of responsibility where I’m like, I need to do this thing, like it has to be perfect. I’m just like, enough, Jenna. Enough. It makes no sense.

And I am only where I’m at today because I’ve made so many mistakes. And somewhere along the way, you guys, I need to spill the beans about something. Somewhere along the way I started judging myself. And it’s only came to light recently. Because I’ve had a lot of my friends, strangers, family, whatever, they always come to me and share with me their stuff. They always tell me their things. Their mistakes, if you will. Because they always say to me, Jenna, you don’t have a judgmental bone in your body. Like I feel like I can tell you anything. I feel like I can be whoever I am around you and you don’t care.

And it’s so true. I don’t have a judgmental bone in my body towards other people.

When it comes to myself... I have been judging myself. I’m judging myself all the time. Like I’m putting myself under this microscope and I’m like assessing myself as though I’m something linear, as if my life is like a start and then a finish. When I’m like, wait a second. I have the universe inside of me, babe. Like we are here. I am here. This is what’s going on for me too. Like I’m having all these experiences. And I have to stop judging myself. I have to start allowing myself to continue to make these mistakes because every time I make mistakes, oh my god, it just helps me grow and I learn and I evolve and that’s the whole point.

And so yeah, I just wanted to share this with anyone who, you know, listens to me. That’s my whole MO. My mission onward. Again, I don’t know if MO’s the right word here, but my MO, my mission onward... wait, is onward? Yeah, it starts with an O. I was like, wait. F**k. Um, but this is my mission onward. To make mistakes. I am going to just keep ripping it. I gotta keep ripping it.

And on the outside looking in, someone who knows me might be like, what? Like, this doesn’t feel new to me. No, there has been an internal shift. Because I realize I have been judging myself. And I don’t judge other people. I really could give 2 s***s what other people are doing. Because I see other people so, so just like as this perfect mess, cluster of energy, atoms, DNA, years and years and years and thousands of years of evolution. I’m just like, you are a beautiful masterpiece. You are a mess and you are a human and I love it.

And somewhere along the way I stopped realizing and remembering, that’s what it is, I stopped remembering that those same things apply to me.

And I’m gonna allow myself to keep making mistakes and smile through it and not judge myself through it and just like, mess up. I’m gonna keep messing up. That’s what I’m gonna do. And I know it’s like silly because it’s like, this summer I’m gonna make mistakes. But I really mean for the rest of my life. And I’m just like, I need to be cool with it because it’s going to keep happening. And so I’m just like, I need to get over myself.

So. In case you’re wondering, yes, I will be making a lot of mistakes and... jokes on... capitalism. I’m not going to judge myself anymore. And I am gonna blame capitalism. I need something to put my finger at in this very moment. So capitalism it is. Joke’s on you.